Late Night Thoughts about Change?
Hello Blog Followers,
It's approximately 12:21 am here, and I am up making a little Cricut present for a coworker of mine who has seemed down in the dumps lately. Tonight, there are a number of topics running through my mind. Most of which is associated with me wishing it was Friday lol... but I am going to talk tonight about change.
As of lately, I have been seeing a change in myself. I'm not sure if any of you experience this too, but it almost as if your "Self Season" is changing. For example, you might be bettering yourself as a person, but to do so you must leave old habits in the past. Personally, right now I am facing a season of growth, change, and acceptance. I started noticing this when I started to become more reserved about my choice of words, and choices. Also, I let so many grudges go that I felt were starting to get silly. I started realizing just because others chose to spend their time being angry didn't mean I had too. This year I chose to be more dedicated to my family, my career, my body, and my school work. I chose not to fight with the fate of my season, but to embrace it instead. In this season, I have decided to have courage. I wanted to take a year as an opportunity to give back to myself. I want to spend time enjoying the world around me, and not succumbing to negativity.
One of my largest complaints about 2019, was that I was feeling unmotivated. I didn't want to create, clean the house, leave the house or do much of anything. I didn't even want to bowl. As most of you know those traits are so out of character for me. After so much thought of why I felt like that, I came to the conclusion that I wasn't addressing my emotions properly. I wasn't letting myself feel. I want to push past the worry of being confrontational and remember that I owe it to myself to speak up. I need to recognize that I deserve to be treated better, and I shouldn't just accept what is in front of me because I am too exhausted. I want to find my purpose, and I want to SLAY it in the best damn way I know-how.
Today. I was talking to a friend while I "worked out" for a little while. We discussed my goals and accomplishments. We talked about the future and where I wanted to be. I disclosed my passion for moving to Washington (and working for HQ), my goal to obtain a Ph.D., traveling, going back to Disney, and so many more items on my bucket list. I told my friend about all of the adventures I was able to explore through 2019. My friend slyly replied, "It must be nice." This phrase, and the way my friend said it sank with me. I flashed back to the times where I remember wishing I was the one always on an adventure, I lived through social media posts of palm trees and the ocean. At that moment, I knew I had come far from those daydreams. Slowly, my dreams, in this season are becoming a reality. Those dreams are coming true because of the small changes that I've made. MY friend is right, it is nice.
This discussion, made me realize that even though I had come far, I don't want my story to stop there. I want to keep moving forward. I want to have the courage, and the motivation to keep going, to keep furthering myself, and bettering myself. I want my story to represent the life that I'm creating. I want to inspire people who have come from the same place that I have to become better than who they are in this season. Someday, I want to speak to all of those who will listen. I want to gather my thoughts and set an example that through courage, change, and motivation all things are possible. Sometimes, that change might hurt, and there might be some negativity associated with it. Those risks will be worth it. Where you are right now, is exactly where you are meant to be.
With that, I will say goodnight.
As always,
KM
It's approximately 12:21 am here, and I am up making a little Cricut present for a coworker of mine who has seemed down in the dumps lately. Tonight, there are a number of topics running through my mind. Most of which is associated with me wishing it was Friday lol... but I am going to talk tonight about change.
As of lately, I have been seeing a change in myself. I'm not sure if any of you experience this too, but it almost as if your "Self Season" is changing. For example, you might be bettering yourself as a person, but to do so you must leave old habits in the past. Personally, right now I am facing a season of growth, change, and acceptance. I started noticing this when I started to become more reserved about my choice of words, and choices. Also, I let so many grudges go that I felt were starting to get silly. I started realizing just because others chose to spend their time being angry didn't mean I had too. This year I chose to be more dedicated to my family, my career, my body, and my school work. I chose not to fight with the fate of my season, but to embrace it instead. In this season, I have decided to have courage. I wanted to take a year as an opportunity to give back to myself. I want to spend time enjoying the world around me, and not succumbing to negativity.
One of my largest complaints about 2019, was that I was feeling unmotivated. I didn't want to create, clean the house, leave the house or do much of anything. I didn't even want to bowl. As most of you know those traits are so out of character for me. After so much thought of why I felt like that, I came to the conclusion that I wasn't addressing my emotions properly. I wasn't letting myself feel. I want to push past the worry of being confrontational and remember that I owe it to myself to speak up. I need to recognize that I deserve to be treated better, and I shouldn't just accept what is in front of me because I am too exhausted. I want to find my purpose, and I want to SLAY it in the best damn way I know-how.
Today. I was talking to a friend while I "worked out" for a little while. We discussed my goals and accomplishments. We talked about the future and where I wanted to be. I disclosed my passion for moving to Washington (and working for HQ), my goal to obtain a Ph.D., traveling, going back to Disney, and so many more items on my bucket list. I told my friend about all of the adventures I was able to explore through 2019. My friend slyly replied, "It must be nice." This phrase, and the way my friend said it sank with me. I flashed back to the times where I remember wishing I was the one always on an adventure, I lived through social media posts of palm trees and the ocean. At that moment, I knew I had come far from those daydreams. Slowly, my dreams, in this season are becoming a reality. Those dreams are coming true because of the small changes that I've made. MY friend is right, it is nice.
This discussion, made me realize that even though I had come far, I don't want my story to stop there. I want to keep moving forward. I want to have the courage, and the motivation to keep going, to keep furthering myself, and bettering myself. I want my story to represent the life that I'm creating. I want to inspire people who have come from the same place that I have to become better than who they are in this season. Someday, I want to speak to all of those who will listen. I want to gather my thoughts and set an example that through courage, change, and motivation all things are possible. Sometimes, that change might hurt, and there might be some negativity associated with it. Those risks will be worth it. Where you are right now, is exactly where you are meant to be.
With that, I will say goodnight.
As always,
KM
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